Learning
As far as I can remember, I've always loved learning. There's something about diving for hours on end on something that you're unfamiliar with that just resonates with me, but it kinda stops here: I love learning about things I don't know.
Even if I want to master something, I get bored after a few weeks or so, once I start having a great understanding of it. Then something new comes around and catches my attention, I delve into it, forget about the old stuff and the circle start again.
I've never really found anything specific that really caught my attention for more than a month. I wish I could. I'm great at a lot of things, but I never fully mastered anything. Sure I've been gaming, programming and browsing internet for around a decade now but these are broad enough topics that you can't expect anybody to fully master them anyway.
Maybe I'm just too young, or maybe I just haven't found the right thing yet. After all, I'm only 20 and still have decades of my life to look after. But it kinda scared me at the same time: if I can't even settle down on one of my passion, will I ever be able to settle down in my life ? With my jobs, my relationships ? I hope I can.
Maybe I don't have to settle down and keeping chasing the high I get from learning something new will be enough though. I don't really know, it doesn't feel right but I guess it's the path I've been heading towards for years now: short-term gratification from learning about new topics, new competences, new people.